1st day of your leaving

I felt emptiness when I woke up. I hope it was a bad dream but apparently it was not. I still can feel the sorrowfulness of yesterday. My tears shredded. I wanted to cry when I was having my breakfast but I have to hold it so that my mom won't notice. I quickly get ready to go to work. When I was in my car, I started to bawl. Those memories of you kept flashing through my mind. Every single word that you had said and every promise you made was so clear. You foreseen that our relationship can be worked out. I trusted it for once and I was truly disappointed, I felt angry, depress and sad. But I got nobody to reach out. I pretended nothing had happened to me. I great everyone I saw, I talked to them as usual and work like usual. But I still can't rid of you out of my mind and my eyes start watering. I wanted to punch something, I wanted to throw something and I wanted to year all the papers but I kept telling myself just focus on my work and don't show to others. I tried to control my breathing and took a deep breath. Just wanted to let you know it's very hurt. I was bawling in my car again after work. I just felt sad. I'd be lying if I said I was totally okay with this. I think you're awesome. I want you to have a happy life. I hope I can still be a part of it somehow, even if we aren't together. The truth is that I am sad now, but I'm going to be okay. I'm going to miss you.